I am tired

We are now in the final countdown of deployment #4 coming to an end, and I am tired.  I am physically and emotionally spent.  I'm trying to get into the full on unbridled excitement of Bryan finally coming home, but I'm not quite there.  Could it be because as soon as he gets home it's time to box everything up and move?  Perhaps.  Could it be because I am so overdone with the unnecessary senseless and stupid drama that has to be brought into my life.  Yes.  Could it be because I have hit my limit of self centered selfish people who have no concept of the people who are outside their door, and who need a freakin' parade to be celebrated for the fact that they did something nice...you bet!  It could also be that I just need my best friend back, I need him here to hold my hand, to look in each others eyes,  to whisper the "I love you" in my ear and not over skype.  I need to see kids back in their dads arms, and then I think my heart will exploded with the love, joy and excitement that the end of this deployment deserves.