It happend....she really is 5!

It really is hard to believe how fast time flies, especially when you take time to reflect on the passing and you can remember times when you said "This will only last for so long, and then things get easier."

I can't believe that 5 years ago today I became a Mom, I really had no clue as to what I was in for, really.  I remember the night that my mom and I went into the hospital to start in the induction process and I was so good and ready to have this child out of my belly!  My original due date was May 1, and the night of the induction was May 11....so 10 days extra was plenty for me, I was huge and uncomfortable and just longed to be not pregnant anymore.  Then I remember getting my bag and getting ready to take the last few pictures with a very pregnant belly, and I burst into tears.  For the first time it hit me, Bryan really wasn't going to be here to see our baby come into this world.  Now you should know I was very prepared for Bryan not being there, we had talked and talked about the timing of starting our family and we knew that with the world that we were living in that Bryan was going to deploy from our next duty station, no matter where we went from Fort Sill.  Really, there is no such thing as "the right time" to start a family, anyone who says that is completely kidding themselves.


So there we were, Mom and I getting into the car to go to hospital to get this kid out......yeah, not really that easy.  I  had heard from everyone with an opinion about anything, that first time labors are going to take a long time, but I thought, hey I've already suffered enough carrying this kid around for all this extra time...HA! (That's God laughing at me)  36 hours of labor, many many many phone calls from Iraq, a mom and a dad who proved that night that they are saints, and out came Rory.  I admit that I was sooo tired and drained from the labor, and the complications that happened after delivery, that when Bryan called just in time to hear her first cries, I asked him to tell my parents what name we had chosen for our baby girl.  Now, I would like to say that I did this to give him a special moment since he couldn't be there, but honestly I couldn't remember what we had finally settled on for a first name!

Fast forward to today, and my first born baby is 5.  During those first 9 months of her life, when I was a single parent I can vividly remember saying at many different times "She is going to get past this phase of screaming at night" or "I can't wait until I don't have to get up and feed her in the middle of the night".  I miss those days, as tired and as stressed out as I was, those were the easy days, the ones that I long for now from a 5 year old.

Thankfully Rory does love a good snuggle, and will always throw out a "I love you Mommy" just because.  So 5 years down, and many many more years to go to see what amazing things that Rory Ann has in store.